Last day...

31st of August
I really can`t believe it`s LAST DAY....last day before school starts!!!

Tommorow is 1st of september- the official SCHOOL DAY!!!
On monday- school starts....and it`s gonna be serious....ohh, 4 years of studying!!! ( my brain is going to have tough times)
On the one hand- IT`s JUST GONNA BE GREAT- meet up with new people, learn something.....but on the other hand - I`M SAD- `cause I know that summer is over, and there will be sleepless nights studying and books and stuff like that!!!

Is it possible to stop TIME ???
/ the same thought as getting up- "...just give me 2 more minutes..."/
I am trying to breathe in this freedom... just few hours left!!!


I am excited for this new period!!!
{ not easy, but WHO said it would be???}

Loosing our heads....

No, no, no... not literally ( that would be awfull )

I mean more in the aspect of loosing our heads by trying to get as much as possible- whether it is working, talking to people or anything else!

I tend to do many things at once... and probably that`s why I can`t do everything excellently ( tendence for perfectionism I guess)... Hmmm, I still don`t get it!!! And more to that things bore me quickly- in the moment when I start liking something- I come to the conclusion- BORING!!!

Thinking about all this-I can run for many things, but nothing can really give me satisfaction and real joy except RELATIONSHIPS WITH JESUS!!!!
Have heard so many things about christianity- that christians are weak; they don`t know what is freedom etc.....

MY EXPERIENCE = I AM FREE to be FREE!

Better to loose head for someone WHO LOVES me, HAS LOVED ME, and ALWAYS will LOVE ME rather than just waste time, strength by loosing head for something, someone what is just "junk" ( I mean in sense that it will never give real satisfaction )!!!

"Everything is permissible for me—but not everything is beneficial.
Everything is permissible for me—but I will not be mastered by anything." - 1.Cor 6:12

I had point in my life ( I made up my decision 7 years ago already to become a christian) when I had to decide if I want to stay EMPTY and act as I were happy.... I was fed up with everything- DIDN`T HAVE ANYTHING TO LOOSE then- was totaly messed up- so tried GOD!!! Have never regreted this decision......

Want REAL FEELINGS??? TRY GOD...

UNIQUE WEEKEND

Ohh, this was just great weekend....
Finaly got to have some quite time from the crowd...before studies! Won`t have time to live Riga for a while :( Although some short trips are permitted...probably this weekend also...

I can`t experience trip fully, if I have not taken any photo for the remembrance...I want to look at it and experience the same excitement and feelings as it were before...I want to remember every day as special the way it was... not only for the big events as graduations, marriage, funerals.....THERE IS SO MUCH MORE!!! EvERy day is a GIFT... every person I meet, every person I talk with- it makes my day special and unique...so I am allowed to say that it was UNIQUE WEEKEND.

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Think or JUST DO IT?

The Destiny of Someone DUE TO the other who Drinks and Drives.....This is Jaqueline Saburido on September 19, 1999.

This is she and her Father, 1998.

At a party with friends.
The car in which Jacqueline travelled. She was hit by another car that was driven by a 17-year old male student on his way home after a couple of hard packs with his friends. This was in December 1999.

After the accident Jacqueline has needed over 40 operations.

Not everyone who gets hit with a car dies. This picture was taken 4 years after the accident and the doctors are still working on Jacqueline, whos body was covered with 60% severe burnings.

Now 20 year old, he cannot forgive himself for driving drunk on that night three years ago. Hes aware of devastating Jaqcueline Saburidos life.
Without a left eyelid Jacqie needs eyedrops to keep her vision.

Jacqueline was caught in the burning car and her body was heavily burnt during around 45 seconds.

Is it worth thinking before You do something.. even in the little things... our lifes can be changed in few seconds.....every action got consequences...[ALWAYS]

READY to take up responsibility and face REALITY with no regret????

No, we are humans and WE DO MISTAKES all the time... but there has been given WARNINGS from people who has gone through tough stuff... it`s wiser to learn from other people mistakes, rather than from ours....

BUT WHY WE NEVER WANT TO DO THAT???

.....man in BLUE/ bro is BACK.....

Who`s the guy in BLUE???
Finaly my brother is back from ENGLAND.... wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii......

And guess what??
Little sister`s got presents....yay...[thank God I am youngest- I DO LOVE RECEIVING GIFTS, in fact, I am always WELCOMED for that....]
I got t-shirt of ENGLAND ( from now on, I will be a real englishwoman ;) just need to learn that odd language, cute though)!!!

blue/transparent/air/sun

3 MOVIES

Last week I got to watch 3 movies (quite a lot for me per week), but as I got opportunities, I didn`t want to waste it...

"Take the lead"
Hmmm.. as I love seeing how young people are radically changed.. I did enjoy watching it!!! Right influence of an adult can be crucial for someone at the age when they are just trying to figure out themselves... and what they need the most- to be accepted and loved the way they are... and to be guided in right direction...

I really think in this generation it`s rarely found good role models, which share good morals and way of living...divorce, drugs, sex, premarital marriage, alcohol, immorality.. that`s what is tought to this generation.. and as they see it daily, they just adjust it to their lifes, and take it as normal!!!

I really wanna see young kids finding their identity not depending on their boyfriends/girlfriends, school, money, parent`s opinion.. but on the way they are created- UNIQUE !!!

They all want to be identical at that age, but they follow the crowd...doing that identity is lost...

"RED eye"

want my opinion?? NEVER and EVER again.....
too much violence, nothing to think about later on.... empty!















"Pride and prejudice"
In factI just watched it, because friend told me that Lizzie (main character) and I am alike...no, don`t even think that I am proud... NOOO, friends has told me that I remind them also penguins from MADAGASKAR, so everything is balanced I guess... hmmm, well anyway....what I think???

Great movie....for now, I would score it as best movie after Beautiful MIND and Green MILE...

Great play between main characters( both are total individuals)... and sincere feelings...purity...too romantic !!!

As i was walking...../18.08.06/

Does this tower reaches heaven???
I like old wooden houses.. especially if they are in my favourite colour!

Who knows why part of this leaf is dead???
Black kittie...

Cute babysitters.....

I wish I could sit on the corner of this cloud....

Just a nice piece of ART...

Time is ticking away...

no, thank YOU....

<<<I am in the process of discovering myself- what I really like, and what I dislike! Everybody knows that I like grapes a lot... but usually answering question [ about food] about my dislikes, I could just say that I am vegetarian...but that was it. DISCOVERY no. 98/45-2006.8:...... tru tu tuuu

i don`t like RICE CRACKERS!!! [not at all]

Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr>>>>>

DAILY LIFE...

Bird HUNTER...

There IS something about GREEN....

Green EYES....
/BAXTER is posing/

I misss....

I miss ..... ......being in the beautiful garden....

....being in TARTU/Estonia ......

......being at the beach......
.....being in Aizpute ......
... being at the waterfall...

GOD vs Spouse....

ummm..... I feel weird now. I decided not to post it..but seems that I can not control my fingers- they are just typing.
Yesterday was looooooooooooooooooong night...went to bed at 3 in the morning...still felt fresh waking up. There was important paper, which I needed to find, so I was turning my appartment upside down to find it....and as I was searching, I found a lot of different, fun, interesting papers, my diaries ....book reviews etc.
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And one more reason, why I want to post it, was today`s conversation with some people, who`s opinion on marriage and relationships was totally opposite mine....
wHAT I believe???
I think that people can be whole without getting married ( and not everyone is called for MARRIAGE)....
I think that sex before marriage is not a good thing....
To have a lover ( after being married) is DUMB...

MARRIAGE is A GIFT.. why do WE RUN FOR IT so much, trying to work that on our strength?? MArriage will NEVER fulfill me or you... it might give good feelings, but not fulfillment /IT CAN ONLY BE GIVEN BY GOD/

SO HERE IS ONE book review/notes....which I can`t resist not posting:
It`s about RELATIONSHIPS and MARRIAGE!
Don`t get me wrong, I do not plan to marry....

WHY do I want to get married?
HOW can GOD meet those needs in my life?

I want to be loved....
"I have loved You with an everlasting love..." Jer. 31:3

I want someone to adore me.....
"The King has brought me into His chambers to adore me. My lover is outstanding among 10,000" Song 1:4, 5:10

I want someone to hold my hand....
"I will uphold You with My righteous right hand" Is 41:10

I want to be accepted and valued....
"I am accepted in the Beloved" Eph. 1:6

I want a place, a nesting place,that is my own to create and use....
"We can rest in the shadow of Almight" Ps. 91:1

I want help in my days of trouble....
"And call upon Me in the day of trouble, I shall rescue You" Ps. 50:15

I want to share my life- the joys and the struggles- with one person ( intimacy)
"God will share with me the treasures of darkness and hidden riches" Is 45:3

I want a champion of my causes- one who is willing to fight for me...
"The Lord will fight for You" Ex 14:14

I want someone to meet my needs....
"God is meeting all my needs..." Phil 4:19

I want intimacy...
"The Lord is intimate with the upright" Ps 140:13

I want someone to help me in my life.....
"There is noone like God who rides the Heavens to help you" Deut. 33:26

I want to walk through life sustained and carried. I don`t want the whole load of life...
"Even to my old age, God will sustain me, carry me and rescue me" Is 46:4

I want a companion for this life....
"God invites us to humbly walk with Him" Mic 6:8

I desire children...
"God gives us spiritual children like the numberless of sand if we invest in lives" Is 48:19

Do SeaguLLs like BMW`s???

Ohh, they definately like BMW`s... as I just wanted to take one shot of this bird, it kept posing for me... from that I take: AT LEAST ONE SEAGULL can find difference between BMW and zaporozhec....

D_ART

Ohh, I am pretty sure You have noticed that I am a person, who likes ART.
I have been lately thinking, that maybe I should get more serious with COMPUTER DESIGN...that`s why I created my new D_ART blog, to collect my previous and present works...

And also I have heard about system - if You want to improve your skills, just start doing it.... even if You don`t feel doing it, or just don`t want it...DO IT!!!!

Writers write every day.. even if they know, that what they write is complete garbage, but still they do, cause they know that writing will make them BETTER writers....the same is with any other speciality... and I am for that!!! Will try to start doing that!!!

Isn`t that 97 % of WORK and only 3 % of TALENT???

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Anyway, just enjoy liitle bit of ART.. and again- something with computers.. couldn`t resist that!!!

REALLLY COOOOOOL!!!!!!!!

Crazy guy....

I just loved this video.... this guy is crazy.... DANCER!

Don`t forget to turn your speakers on!!!!

What courage it takes?

What courage it takes?

"What is common for the cat with courage"- You might ask.

Real facts made me start thinking about this...I saw mother cat with her little kitty playing with. What I thought was: Does it reflect our nowadays situation with real families? how often we see single mothers with their kids .... alone.

To be honest- my heart breaks when I see mother who acts if her baby were a burden.... And more pathetic is then if the fathers, part of cell, called FAMILY is in local pub...as I know it takes TWO to have a family...and if it`s whole, then family can have children, otherwise it`s just destroyed LIFES....

Of course there are good mothers, which wants to give the BEST to her kids:/this time I want to use patalel with cat life/ - as it was the reason, why I started writing this!
So here is what happened/ probably You all remember this, dated 1996/:
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Kitty heroine recovers with her kittens
NEW YORK (CNN) -- A mother cat who raced into a burning Brooklyn building and rescued her five kittens is recuperating with her litter at an animal clinic. With her eyes blistered shut, her paws burned and her coat singed, the cat -- nicknamed Scarlet for her patches of red fur -- darted into the flames and pulled out her kittens, one by one. Once all the kittens had been rescued, their mother conducted a head count, touching each kitten with her nose to make sure they were all there.
Firefighter David Gianelli found the feline family outside the building Friday and took them to an animal shelter, where the mother and babies are receiving treatment.
Hundreds of people have offered to adopt the cats. Or check this one: Scarlet saves
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If a cat is willing to sacrifice, how much more we should as a HUMAN BEINGS????